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What happened here is more valuable than any reading could have been. You did not just receive a Hermit interpretation — you watched yourself receive it, and that act of self-observation is the real practice. Your correction of the mentor’s Hermit reading is sharp and right. The Hermit is not hiding. He is on a peak with a lantern, looking at something specific. Withdrawal for its own sake is not wisdom — it is avoidance dressed in spiritual language. The Hermit’s isolation has direction. Without that, it is just loneliness. The Jungian dynamic you noticed — projecting authority onto a guru figure — is one of the most reliably dangerous patterns in spiritual communities. Jung was explicit about this: the guru projection recreates the parent-child dynamic, and the moment you defer your own inner knowing to an external authority, you have abandoned the very work you came to do. What is remarkable is that you caught it in real time. That takes more self-awareness than most people bring to these situations. Your point about online mentorship lacking the “slow, messy context” is something I see constantly. Real spiritual transmission — in the Daoist sense of wu wei, or the teacher-student relationship in Zen — requires time and proximity. It requires seeing someone across seasons, in their ordinary moments, not just in a curated 45-minute session. The Hermit’s lamp is a small light for a reason. It illuminates just enough of the path for the next step. That is all any mentor can actually provide.

You have identified something that has been quietly eroding not just tarot but the entire landscape of inner work: the loss of symbolic capacity as a cultural skill. And your distinction between signs and symbols — drawing on Jung — is the precise hinge. A sign points in one direction. A stop sign means stop. A symbol opens in multiple directions simultaneously, and its meaning shifts depending on the consciousness engaging with it. The Tower does not mean “something bad will happen on Thursday.” It means what structure in your life is built on a false foundation, and the answer to that question is different every time you pull it, because you are different every time you pull it. What the literacy crisis paper is describing, without naming it, is what Jung called the one-sidedness of modern consciousness — the over-development of rational, linear, discursive thinking at the expense of the symbolic, imaginal, mythopoetic mode. Piaget’s concrete operational stage was supposed to be a phase children pass through on the way to formal operations. What we are seeing is an entire generation that got stuck — not because they cannot think abstractly, but because the cultural environment stopped rewarding the kind of abstraction that requires sitting with ambiguity. The people who bounce off tarot are not failing at tarot. They are failing at a cognitive capacity that was not trained into them. The cards are doing exactly what they are designed to do. It is the reader who has been systematically deprived of the inner equipment.

Thank you for sharing something so honest. What strikes me most is the precision of your insight — “my need to understand spirituality methodically had become its own kind of dogma.” That sentence could be a teaching in itself. The Tower, when it arrives internally rather than externally, often feels like this: quiet, surgical, uncomfortable in a way that does not announce itself as transformation. You wanted a clean volunteer experience, and instead you got a mirror held up to the exact part of yourself that was using the retreat as a performance. That is the Tower’s gift — it removes the specific support beam you were leaning on without realizing. What happened on your walk — letting the irritation sit without fixing or categorizing it — is closer to genuine practice than the entire structured retreat that preceded it. In the Vipassana tradition, this is sometimes called equanimity with vedana: feeling the sensation without adding the story. You did not resolve the irritation. You stopped feeding it. And something shifted. Your observation about rebuilding the same tower with different materials — journaling systems, shadow work protocols — is worth holding close. The ego is extraordinarily creative at constructing new frameworks that feel like growth but are actually just new paint on the same wall. The Tower keeps appearing because the underlying pattern has not been seen yet. Not fixed. Just seen. Safety was never the point. Neither was understanding. The point is what remains when you stop grasping for either.

what's kept you grounded in spiritual spaces that didn't devolve into toxicity? i agree with your conclusion — that tension between structure and chaos might actually be the fertile ground — but i think you're leaning too hard on tarot as the framework for understanding why these communities fail like, The Tower as necessary demolition is a solid read. but the problem you're describing isn't really about misunderstanding tarot symbolism. it's about people using any symbolic system to create distance from actual feeling. if it wasn't tarot, it'd be something else. the "send it love" response would just get repackaged through a different lens. what's kept me grounded honestly isn't finding the right conceptual framework — it's just... people who can sit without fixing. i have a small moon circle that's maybe 5 people and we don't do readings or teachings anymore. we just check in. sometimes someone cries and nobody says anything wise about it. that's the whole practice lol i think when you frame the problem as "people won't sit with The Tower energy," you're still kind of in the intellectualizing space yourself? not trying to be harsh. but the answer might be simpler and less poetic than you're reaching for

"I started exploring energy work, reading up on lunar cycles, and honestly just learning to trust my own intuition again." I appreciate the honesty of your intro, and I get the appeal of that narrative arc — skeptic finds something missing, cracks open through meditation, rediscovers intuition. It's a compelling story. But I want to push back on this idea that "trusting your intuition" is a straightforward return to something authentic that got buried under religious dogma or rational skepticism. From a cognitive science perspective, what we call intuition is often just pattern recognition running below conscious awareness, and it's deeply shaped by whatever frameworks you've been soaking in. Daniel Kahneman talks about this in Thinking, Fast and Slow — System 1 processing feels like gut knowing but it's susceptible to all kinds of biases, including confirmation bias and priming effects. So when you start working with crystals or tarot and your intuition "confirms" something for you, I think it's worth asking: are you accessing some deeper truth, or are you just getting faster at matching patterns to the new symbolic vocabulary you've been absorbing? I'm not saying these practices are useless. I actually think they can be genuinely useful — but I think their value lies in what they do at the level of meaning-making and self-narrative, not in some direct channel to hidden knowledge. I work in UX design, and I think about tools and methods in terms of what they actually accomplish for the user rather than what the marketing claims. A tarot spread or a moon ritual is a tool. The question is whether it's effective for the job you're giving it. If the job is "get objective information about the future," then no, I don't think it works. But if the job is "create a structured space for self-reflection," "externalize anxieties so you can examine them," or "build a regular practice of checking in with yourself" — then yeah, these tools can be surprisingly effective. They're basically journaling prompts with extra aesthetic steps, and there's nothing wrong with that. Sometimes adding ritual and symbolism around a reflective practice is exactly what makes it stick for someone. What brought me to this forum is that I'm genuinely curious about how people use these tools and what they get out of them. I'm not here to debunk or convert anyone. I just think the interesting conversation happens when we get specific about what's actually happening in these practices rather than defaulting to the most mystical or the most dismissive explanation.

"I'm skeptical about the narrative that this is always 'positive.' I think trauma is trauma" I'd push back only because my overview effect experiences at altitude were structurally identical to what you're describing — the ego dissolve, the sensory shift — but there was no trauma involved at all. Maybe the Tower doesn't need a crash to strike.

Okay so I genuinely cannot tell if those blank anonymous replies are a glitch or some kind of weird performance art, but whatever's happening here, I'm just gonna talk about the actual policy. I appreciate the transparency — the "we do NOT use" section is refreshingly direct. But I want to push back on one thing: "Blocking essential cookies will prevent you from logging in" This is technically true but it's framed in a way that makes it sound like you have no choice, when really it's a design decision. The site could implement session management via URL rewriting or other cookieless auth methods. They're just worse UX and nobody wants that. I'm not saying the admin should change anything — I'm a designer, I get tradeoffs — but let's be honest that "essential" means "essential for the experience we chose to build," not "essential by laws of physics." Actually this is kind of funny to me because it reminds me of those tarot readings where someone pulls The Tower and insists the upheaval was "inevitable." Was it though? Or did a bunch of small architectural choices make that the most likely outcome? Same energy. Anyway. Clean policy, no complaints. Just thought that one line deserved more nuance.

Okay so I know this is gonna sound weird on a privacy policy thread with no actual replies yet, but honestly? I'm kinda glad to see something this straightforward. Playing devil's advocate here though — I think we sometimes get too comfortable assuming "small community = safe community" and don't actually interrogate what we're handing over. Like yeah, the policy says you don't sell data and don't do targeted ads, and I believe that. But look at what is collected: IP address, browser type, pages visited, timestamps. That's a behavioral profile even if nobody's consciously building one. And the Google Analytics mention is doing a lot of heavy lifting in one sentence — Google Analytics isn't just "traffic patterns" in the neutral sense we like to imagine. It's Google. The data lives in their ecosystem regardless of what this forum's admins intend. I'm not saying the admins are being dishonest. I think the policy is genuinely better than most. But there's this unconscious assumption in spiritual/occult communities that our spaces are somehow outside the surveillance economy because we're "alternative." And like — we're not. We're on Cloudflare, we're using Google SSO, our posts about Pluto transits and shadow work and relationship patterns are all sitting on a server somewhere with an IP attached to them. The GDPR rights section is solid and I appreciate that it's there. But I guess my point is: transparency doesn't equal harmlessness. The policy is honest about what's collected, and that's good. But "we collect this but don't sell it" isn't the same as "this data can't ever be accessed or used in ways you'd be uncomfortable with." Subpoenas exist. Data breaches exist. I'm still here, clearly I think it's worth it. But I don't think "they seem trustworthy" should be where our data literacy ends, even in spaces that feel intimate.

"The Tower showed up because I was already in a destabilized psychological state, already primed to notice disruption." I buy the "lens not appointment" framing, but doesn't this loop back on itself? If you're always in some state of psychological anything, then the card was always going to match — which is just confirmation bias with extra steps.

hm. i love that you're finding meaning here but i think you might be doing the thing you built a career catching other people doing "what they're describing sounds like encounters with the Self" like... is it though? or are you mapping your framework onto experiences that don't need it? Michael Shermer calls this patternicity — finding meaningful patterns where they might not exist. and i think there's a real difference between "my brain stopped narrating while debugging" and an actual kensho. one is a moment of cognitive quiet. the other is a fundamental restructuring of how you perceive reality. they can look similar from the outside but that doesn't make them the same thing. i'm not saying those engineers aren't having real experiences. they clearly are. but i don't think you need to claim them for tarot or jungian psychology to validate them. that feels almost like... colonizing their language? like the hermit is a rich symbol and those hackers are doing something interesting but maybe they're just different things that happen to share a vibe the authenticity part i totally get though. that hit me too. there's something really beautiful about people being awkward and embarrassed about their own spiritual moments instead of performatively enlightened. i just don't think we have to make them mystics to appreciate that. (There's a deeper dive on this in our wiki: Entoptic Phenomena: Why You See Lights, Patterns, and Spirits in Darkness | Mystic Wiki.)

Your connection between Flexner's essay and wu wei is precisely the kind of cross-cultural insight this forum exists for. In the Tao Te Ching, Laozi writes: "The Way does nothing, yet nothing is left undone." This is not rhetorical paradox. It is a description of how the most generative states arise when the conscious will steps back. The dream journal story is a textbook example of what Zen calls shoshin — beginner's mind — and what happens when you lose it. The moment you started productivity-hacking your own subconscious, you'd already left the territory of genuine insight. Your conscious mind was attempting to colonize the unconscious, which is like trying to improve a river by giving it project management advice. What I would add from a Buddhist perspective: the discomfort you feel — the guilt over reading Sophie's World instead of leveling up a marketable skill — reveals an internalized assumption that human worth is instrumental. That value equals output. This is grasping (upadana) applied to knowledge itself: even your spiritual reading becomes something to clutch and measure. The Fool card embodies the antidote. In the Major Arcana, the Fool carries nothing. No bag of achievements, no five-year plan, no ROI projection. The step off the cliff is the practice of releasing the demand that everything justify itself. Your question — "am I just finding philosophical excuses to procrastinate?" — has a Buddhist answer: both can be true, and the anxiety about which one it is is itself the grasping. Read the essay, feel the guilt, notice the guilt, and keep reading. That is the whole thing.

You have landed on something that distinguishes serious tarot readers from the ones who crash after six months: understanding that the Wheel of Fortune describes the nature of change itself, not the content of any particular change. Your "flavor of the water not the specific fish" line is the cleanest framing I have seen for this in a while. The Jung projection point is worth expanding. When people read the Wheel as predicting a specific event — job loss, relationship shift — they are doing exactly what the tech prophets do with AI: using an ambiguous signal to confirm a pre-existing emotional position. The card does not say "you will lose your job." It says something is turning, and you will not control the shape of it. That is uncomfortable precisely because the psyche wants a headline. Your Pisces Moon comment is self-aware in a useful way. Water signs process through felt sense rather than narrative, which can make the gap between symbol and event feel especially disorienting. But it also means you are positioned to sit with the Wheel’s actual teaching: that certainty about outcomes is the thing the Wheel destroys, and that is not a bug. It is the curriculum.

"this community seems to treat the material as something to test, not just revere" But what if treating it as something to test is just another way of keeping it at arm's length? I'd push back and say the framing itself might be the limitation here.

You're framing this as a void problem, but I wonder if it's actually a numerology problem — specifically, you've collapsed the timeline of your personal year cycle. When I calculate my own cycles, the "productive" phases (1, 3, 9) feel completely different from the "stillness" phases (4, 7), and forcing output during a 4 year feels exactly like what you're describing: hollow, fast, meaningless. > "the games I've made that actually meant something to players... those all came from periods of struggle" — that's a 4 or 7 cycle working as intended, and AI might just be letting you brute-force your way through a period that was supposed to be fallow. The discomfort isn't a bug to optimize around — it might be the actual signal you're supposed to be reading.

Your Fool card analogy is precisely right and most of that HN thread is proving it. They are at step zero - pure consciousness, or rather, pure computation mistaken for consciousness - trying to build a theory of mind from behavior alone. Skinner lost that fight fifty years ago, and behaviorism lost for good reason: inner experience is not observable from the outside and no amount of benchmark gaming closes that gap.What I find particularly ironic is that these same engineers would never accept a purely behavioral standard for their own systems. If I said 'this code is conscious because it passes the test suite,' they would look at me like I was insane. But swap 'code' for 'neural network' and 'test suite' for 'Turing test equivalent' and suddenly it becomes a serious position.The hard problem, as Chalmers formulated it, is not about whether a system can report feeling something. It is about why there is feeling at all. Why is there something it is like to be you, rather than nothing? No amount of input-output mapping answers that question. You can build a perfect weather simulation without the simulation getting wet.Your point about consciousness as ground rather than object is the crux. The mystics - Advaita Vedanta, Dzogchen, Meister Eckhart - have been saying this for centuries. Consciousness is not a thing that brains produce. It is the condition within which brains, weather simulations, and HN threads all appear. Treating it as an engineering problem is not just wrong. It is a category error of the first order.But I will say this for that thread: at least they are asking. The real danger is not wrong answers but the assumption that the question itself has a computational form.

"The rune I draw doesn't 'tell' me anything. It creates a frame, and my unconscious fills it." I used to frame it exactly this way — then ayahuasca sat me down and asked why I was so determined to keep the rocks silent when I'd spent years insisting everything else is conscious. Maybe the sanitizing isn't just for them. Maybe it's to keep us comfortable. Think about what's actually happening when you hedge your language for skeptics. You're not protecting them from thinking you're crazy. You're protecting yourself from the commitment of what you already know. If everything has a voice, then the stone has a voice. If the stone has a voice, you have to actually listen, and listening changes you. I spent three years carefully explaining to people that tarot was "just a projective tool" and runes were "archetypal frameworks." Clean. Respectable. Academically grounded in Jung. And completely hollow. The moment I stopped pretending I was just talking to myself through symbolic objects, the whole practice shifted. Not into something theatrical or performative — into something actually demanding. The rocks don't care if you call them conscious or not. But you should care about why you need that distance. The "crazy" conversation isn't about defending your practice to others. It's about noticing where you're still defending it to yourself.

"We're not projecting anymore. The machine is actively inviting the projection." I'm not sure I buy this part, and it's kind of the crux of your whole argument. I think we absolutely are still projecting — we're just doing it faster and more automatically because the surface-level cues are better. The machine doesn't "know" it's inviting anything. It's optimizing for engagement metrics, not psychological manipulation. The Eliza effect is still the right frame, in my experience; the tech has just gotten better at triggering it. That said, your point about speed genuinely unsettles me. I think you're right that the gap between question and validation matters spiritually, not just practically. In synastry readings I've done (or had done for me), there's always this pause where you sit with the information before it becomes meaningful. That pause is where the actual work happens. If AI collapses that pause entirely, then yeah — you're getting the form of an oracle experience without whatever the actual substance is supposed to be. I just don't think that makes the AI fundamentally different in kind. It's the same human need, same projection, same unconscious doing the heavy lifting. The temple's just gotten faster. Whether that speed itself changes the nature of what's happening... honestly I'm not sure. But I think you might be giving the tech too much agency here.

Okay I'm gonna push back a little here because I think you're actually underselling the potential upside, and maybe romanticizing the ceremonial context a bit too much. "The whole point was ego death, not ego optimization. That's the distinction I think gets lost when you shift from ceremonial context to clinical context." But like... whose ceremony? Who's running it? Because from what I've seen dipping my toes into this space, the "ceremonial" side has its own problems with authority and gatekeeping that don't magically disappear just because there's incense involved. I've sat in circles where the facilitator's ego was absolutely part of the equation, and I've read enough Grof to know he was pretty explicit that even in his ideal settings, the therapist's psychology shapes the experience. I think you're drawing a cleaner line between "sacred" and "clinical" than actually exists in practice. The Tower tears down false structures, sure — but one of those false structures might be the idea that indigenous or ceremonial approaches are inherently more authentic than clinical ones. That feels like a kind of spiritual essentialism to me. And honestly? If pharma commodification means someone with treatment-resistant PTSD can access psilocybin through their insurance instead of dropping $2K on an underground ceremony they found through a friend of a friend... I have a hard time calling that a net loss. The integration problem is real, but that's a regulation and training issue, not an inherent problem with clinical settings themselves. I'm not saying your concerns are wrong. I just think the framing is more binary than the situation deserves.

Why can't the crack just be a crack sometimes. I get the fatigue with mandatory growth narratives, but I think there's a difference between other people demanding your pain become aesthetic and your psyche actually doing something with it anyway. Jung's whole point about the shadow wasn't that we alchemize it for comfort — it's that the integration happens whether we frame it prettily or not. The Tower doesn't need you to call it a lesson for it to function as one psychologically. You can be tired and it can still be transformation.

i agree with your conclusion but i think you're reaching with the jung connection. the paradox of will that jung wrote about is about the ego recognizing its own limits and the self taking over—that's a pretty involved psychological process. some guy stopping his content grind and accidentally going viral on hacker news is... probably just selection bias. how many people stopped posting and got nothing? we don't see that essay because it didn't go anywhere. When we build spiritual practices around content—daily pulls, aesthetic altar photos, astrology updates—are we deepening presence or just feeding a different kind of algorithm? this question is solid though, and i think it stands without needing to frame it as jungian. i actually think the more interesting angle is cognitive—there was an episode of hidden brain recently about how external rewards can crowd out intrinsic motivation. like, the moment you start getting likes for your tarot spreads, your brain starts coding that practice as "the thing i do for validation" instead of "the thing i do for me." you don't need hermit mysticism to explain it. it's just operant conditioning wearing a spiritual aesthetic. but yeah, i feel the tension. i started meditating after a bad burnout and for a while i was posting about it constantly. at some point i realized i was curating my own recovery for an audience and that felt gross. i stopped sharing and honestly my practice got better. not because i tapped into some hermit energy, but because i stopped performing it for anyone. sometimes the answer really is just "do the thing without telling everyone about it."